by Lawrence Powell
Nestled in the ancient text of 1 John 4 is a powerful principle for contemporary kingdom living. By this principle, we should live our lives, conduct our affairs and minister in the name of Jesus. It is found in verse 4: You are of God, little children, and have overcome them because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.
This powerful verse begins with, You are of God, little children… That is emphatic: You are a child of God! It is very important that as a believer you know who you are. If you dont, then you will live far beneath your potential. Youll live like youre somebody else! When you do not know who you are in God, in Christ, Satan will try to keep you from accepting this kingdom principle. Hell work to convince you that youre weak, that youre a loser. Hell have you convinced theres no way out, that your situation is not redeemable. Hell tell you that the sickness attacking your body will be the end of you. But youre not powerless, friend — youre more than a conqueror. Youre a winner! Youre undefeatable!
The scripture goes on to say, You have overcome them. Who is them? This term actually refers to the Antichrist and the spirit of Antichrist, which is in the world. We know from words like antiperspirant that the prefix anti means that which is against, or that which is opposed to. So, antichrist means that which opposes Christ, that which is against Christ. So this spirit of Antichrist is Satan himself, the demonic realm, the demonic agenda, not just the Antichrist personified in End Times teachings.
The spirit of Antichrist will try to deceive you and lead you astray. It will invite you to accept human reason over godly reason, temporal evidence as the facts, but-Good News!-the real fact is you are an overcomer! You may have a treasure in an earthen vessel. Your outward man may be perishing, according to the Scriptures, but your inward man is being renewed day by day. Your body is not perfect: It ages (dont we know it!). But whats most important is who we are in the spirit. While you may stand bent over in pain before a mirror and shake your head at your frailty, God may look upon you as a powerhouse of prayer and faith in the midst of your storm!
John, in his epistle, makes it very clear why we are overcomers: Because greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world. Without Jesus in us, there is no overcoming. Theres nothing we can do to save ourselves. We cannot redeem the time or make things new. Theres simply no reason for us to be self-focused or think of ourselves as self-sufficient! No, wisdom declares that we need to be God-focused. God is mighty. He is the One who can save. And He is greater than anything we will ever come against.
It is important to know who you are. Its also extremely important that you know who God is. How big is your God? How great is He? If you see Him as distant or distracted, how will His greatness reach you? If you see Him as too big for your problems, how will you cry out to Him for help? Likewise, if you see Him as a spiritual shadow, how will you have confidence that He can do anything for you? If Hes just a religious figure like Buddha or Muhammad, how can He do for you what you need to be done?
The Scriptures tell us many things about God: He is a Self-revealing God. From the opening statement in the book of Genesis, He reveals His nature to man: In the beginning, God… The Hebrew word is Elohim, the Creator God, the self-existent, eternal and righteous God. If we saw God for who He is, we wouldnt get so discouraged by the evil and godlessness of our culture. If we could keep the greatness of God before our eyes, wed be gripped by His awesome reality. Like the Bible tells us in 2 Corinthians 3:18, if we saw the greatness of God, we would be changed from one degree of glory to the next.
God is omnipotent (all-powerful, almighty); He is omnipresent (everywhere present); He is omniscient (all-knowing). He is eternal, self-existent. God is self-sufficient. He doesnt need anybody else. He can actually do it all on His own!
God is transcendent, beyond our ability to describe or fully comprehend. But although He is transcendent, He is also imminent. He is God with us. God is sovereign. God is salvation. God is love. He is holy and just. He is righteous. Everything He does is pure and right. Everything He says is truth.
God is good, and His mercy endures forever. God is faithful even when we are unfaithful. God is our Helper, a very real and present help in times of trouble. He is Jehovah Rapha, the God who heals us. He is a deliverer, a miracle-worker. And He is immutable (He never changes).
God is still on the throne, my friend! The only way Satan can ever defeat you is if you become ignorant of who you are in Christ. When you know really knowthat the Greater One resides inside you, then defeat is not an option. You will laugh without fear of the future.
We are seated together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus, and everything that is under His feet is under our feet as well. When we stand in this truth, we will see victory in our battles. When we stand unified with our other brothers and sisters in the faith, well see the kingdom of darkness pushed back and the glory of God released into our communities, our businesses, our schools, our nation, and our world!
I hope you will evict the lies of the enemy from your life today: discouragement, unbelief, poverty, sicknessyouve got to go in Jesus name! Be of good courage, believer. Lift up your head and get back to doing what God has called you to do. Greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world!
50 dead, 53 hospitalized in the mass shooting at a gay nightclub in Orlando, my prayers go to the families.
After an Autism Diagnosis: 13 Crucial Next Steps For Parents
If your child has recently been diagnosed with autism, as my son was in 2003, here’s what I want you to know: Learn from me, don’t be me.
Leo, around the time of his diagnosis. Photo: © Jonathan Mandel, used with permissionWhen professionals first started suggesting that my Leo might be autistic, I reeled. I didn’t know anything about autism at the time, except as disability version of a child-stealing bogeyman. When my son’s diagnosis was confirmed, I was terrified. And then I was depressed. And then I got to work on figuring out how to parent an autistic kid. And then I made a lot of mistakes. And then I rued those mistakes and tried to do better. And then I wished it hadn’t taken me so damn long to figure out the best ways to support, help, advocate for, and express my love for my now-teen son—who has always deserved better than a reeling, terrified, depressed, confused, and regretful mom.
The funny thing is, the happy photo of my family and parents you see above was taken around the time Leo was first diagnosed. Look at that cute, sweet little guy, radiating and reciprocating joy! Yet that sweetness and that joy was not my focus at the time, because I was so preoccupied by negative assumptions about autism, and also by the urging I was getting from so many sources to “fix” Leo, to hurry up and get him into various therapies so he wouldn’t miss any supposed windows of opportunity.
I wish I’d known then what I know now: that I should have given myself more time to recognize my wonderful autistic boy for who he is, rather than what people assumed autism made him. I also wish I’d been able to recognize and dismiss all that debilitating ignorance, fear, and confusion.
Ideally, I’d go back in time and advise (and pinch) my former self. But since that’s not currently possible, my next best option is to share some hard-earned wisdom with parents who are just starting out, so they can avoid some of the mistakes I made, and do right by their autistic kids.
So here it is: the advice I wished I’d been given, when my son Leo was first diagnosed with autism.
1. Give yourself time to adjust.
Negative messages and images dominate media coverage of autism, and are the main reasons autism scares the crap out of parents and parents-to-be. What most don’t realize is that they’ll be parenting the same kid they were parenting before the autism diagnosis arrived, and that diagnosis just helps steer you and your parenting approach in the right direction. So give yourself time to be cautious and thoughtful, and adjust your course as needed.
There’s no denying that autism can bring challenges for your kid or your family, no matter your child’s personality or specific needs. But please know that most problems you encounter will be due to lack of understanding and accommodation about autism from other people and society in general, and not because of autism. This is especially true when your child’s needs are less evident: if they don’t appear to have a language delay, or if they need support with filtering overwhelming everyday environments, as in processing delays or sensory sensitivities.
You also need to give yourself time to understand why those nasty and ever-present cultural messages about all autistic kids being lost in their own worlds, isolated, lacking affection or empathy, etc., are so hurtful and mistaken, so you can push back against them. Those messages are based on misunderstanding of autistic people and how they interact with and perceive the world, and are just not true. By pushing back, you can help make the world a better place for your child right now, and also for the adult they will become.
2. Give the people around you time to adjust, and keep them in the loop.
Like me, my friends and family didn’t know a thing about autism when Leo was first diagnosed. They also didn’t know what to say to us, beyond platitudes. I don’t really blame them; we were all in that ignorance boat together. But I do wish I’d been together enough to feed them lines like, “it’s okay to ask us questions, but we might not know the answers yet” and “feel free to keep inviting us over; we’ll say no if it doesn’t work.”
One way you can help your people become your team—and by helping them, help your child and yourself—is by inviting folks along for the ride. You can post status updates on private groups on Facebook, on blogs, or though periodic group emails (being mindful of your child’s privacy in the more public areas). You can let your people know it’s okay to absorb information without commenting. This way, you have less to explain when you see them in person, and the new information you’re figuring out won’t be foreign to them.
Hopefully, these efforts will mean you and your child become surrounded by people who understand and support you. (They may also decrease the number of well-meaning but insulting “I could never do what you do” comments.)
3. Give yourself time to process information critically.
There is so much bad autism information out there, especially the hawking of sciencey-sounding “cures” (there’s no such thing) or “recovery” (ditto). But there’s so much good information, too! And the more informed you become, the more your perspectives on and understanding of autism and parenting will change — ideally for the better.
Wired journalist Steve Silberman’s forthcoming book NeuroTribes*, for example, goes deep into the history of how we define autism, how who qualifies as autistic has changed over time, why there’s no autism epidemic, the dehumanizing history of Applied Behavioral Analysis, and the emerging leadership of autistic people themselves—and will change the way a lot of people think about autism. It’s a must-read.
While I’m not a huge fan of “mommy instinct,” I do think parents need to pay attention to their autism information spidey sense. If someone is pushing autism information that does not stand up to even the most cursory research—for instance, that autism is caused by misaligned energy pathways, or is avaccine injury—run away and find better information resources.
4. Give yourself time learn which organizations and people to trust.
Most people outside the communities consider Autism Speaks a trustworthy autism resource. Yet, in my experience, autistic people and their supporters tend to criticize Autism Speaks, for not including any autistic people in its leadership, and for basing their fundraising campaigns on fear of autism and pity for autistic people and their families.
Autistic-led organizations like The Autistic Self-Advocacy Network (ASAN) tend to focus on the needs of autistic people of all ages and abilities, and provide toolkits and other advocacy materials. When I’m looking for good information, I tend to watch what ASAN and their allied organizations are posting about.
My biggest shift in understanding happened when I encountered autistic people and their writings, and learned to trust them. Julia Bascom’s essay Dear Autism Parents felt scary and confrontational when I first read it several years ago, but now sounds impassioned and reasonable—as well as a wake-up call to parents who misunderstand autistic adults, their passion for helping today’s autistic kids, and their right to assert authority in understanding the autistic experience.
While evaluating whether an org or person is reliable, you may need to work on your own defensiveness. If you get angry at a person’s autism information or an autism org’s position, consider that you may actually be overwhelmed by the possibility that you had been getting your information from unreliable sources. Give yourself the space to walk away and think things over.
You also need to learn to differentiate between those who are legitimately angry over unfair treatment, and those who attack unfairly; you should at least listen respectfully to the former. And, for the sake of all that is holy, avoid toxic parenting groups—meaning parents who at first glance appear reasonable and compassionate, but would “understand” if you hurt your autistic child.
5. Give yourself time to figure out what autism means for your child.
Autistic brains and thinking processes can be very different from non-autistic brains. If you’re not autistic yourself, learning to recognize and understand these differences may take time, as well as trial and error. What a non-autistic person might think is emotional manipulation or callousness may be logic, executive function challenges, or genuine confusion: An autistic child may refuse to clean their room not out of defiance, but because they can’t comprehend taking on large multi-step processes without a checklist; or a child may laugh when other people are in trouble, not to be callous, but out of relief that they or their loved ones aren’t the distressed party.
Autistic perceptions of pain can also be atypical—some autistic people are hyposensitive, others are hypersensitive, some are both, and some just have a hard time interpreting pain signals. Be vigilant when your child appears to be injured, because they may not be able to tell you just how hurt they are, even if they are otherwise articulate.
Sensory experiences are also different for many autistic kids. They may not be able to filter out lights, sounds, or touch—to the point where just walking into a grocery store can cause a meltdown. If your child refuses to enter large, bright, loud, or bustling environments, consider that it may actually be painful for them to do so. If they’re not doing well in their classroom, consider that they might need noise-canceling headphones, or tinted glasses, to help filter out sensory stimuli so they can focus.
A large percentage of autistic people have clinical-level anxiety, and may learn to self-soothe throughstimming or creating elaborate, predictable, and therefore safe, routines. Try to understand why your child may be behaving differently than their peers, instead of getting embarrassed by your child behaving differently than their peers.
Also: Become educated about autistic learning styles. Not all autistic kids are math prodigies. In fact, studies show that most don’t have superior math skills. Most have average or below-average skills. In addition, co-occuring learning disabilities like ADHD, dyslexia, or dyscalculia are quite common too, and can be overlooked or termed “laziness” if your child is perceived to have academic strengths in other areas, or if your child is a person of color.
6. Give yourself time to figure out what communication looks like for your child.
Everyone communicates. Even kids who don’t speak. But autistic kids who can speak fluidly may not be able to communicate all their intentions. Be very careful about this, as those seemingly fluid talkers often have their communication needs underestimated, and suffer as a result.
And for those kids, like my son, who don’t speak or are not fluid speakers: We need to be careful to presume competence, to treat them as though they can understand everything you say. But that’s not enough. As Julia Bascom writes about parents who discover that their child is more capable than they’d realized:
“…they think the problem was that they treated their child like they were intellectually disabled, and they weren’t. But that’s not the problem. The problem is that they thought their child was intellectually disabled, and so they didn’t treat them like a person.”
Your communication goals for your child should be to find their optimal communication strategy and style—whether that’s speaking, using a symbol-to-speech device, or typing—and not to prove to the world that there’s a hidden child locked away inside your actual child right there in front of you.
7. Give yourself time to figure out which supports, schools, therapies, and environments will help your child succeed.
Is an inclusive educational environment a possibility? Do you know how to differentiate between helpful and harmful therapies? Are you unknowingly subjecting your child to therapies that would never be allowed with non-disabled kids? Do you know how to write educational goals that will best serve your child’s needs?
(This is where you rely on those trustworthy resources, as much as you can.)
8. Give yourself the space to be flexible about needs, and pick your battles.
You may need to adjust your rhythms to those of a kid who doesn’t sleep much, whose limited diet means bringing their food along whenever you don’t eat at home, who thrives on medications you’d previously consider terrifying choices, who suddenly can’t tolerate certain environments and needs to leave. Remind yourself that your child isn’t doing any of those things by choice, and renew your commitment to understanding their autistic needs.
9. Give yourself time to find autistic role models for your child.
If your child doesn’t know any other autistic kids or people like themselves, they may feel alone and isolated (or even broken, or defective). Don’t let that happen if you can do anything about it. I have found good role models for my son in the blogs of autistic people, and in books about autistic people. And, of course, through hanging out with autistic people!
As much as you love your child and accept your child (and as much as those feelings may be reciprocated)—if you’re not autistic, then you’re not part of the community your child does belong to. So please help your child find their tribe.
10. Give yourself time to think about shared traits.
By this, I mean traits you might share with your child, and other family members might share with your child. Even if you yourself don’t have enough traits for a diagnosis, many parents and siblings get diagnosed with autism themselves after another family member’s diagnosis makes them more aware of what autism can mean. This is especially important for female siblings and family members, as autism in girls is different than autism in boys and is often overlooked due to gender bias in diagnostic criteria.
Having multiple people with autistic traits in a home can mean greater understanding, but it can also conflict: In our house, we have some people who like to make noise, some people who are rather insensitive to noise, and some people who are overly sensitive to noise. If the noise maker is happy, the noise-avoider is miserable, and the noise-oblivious person (okay, me) is too often wondering what the hell is going on. We are still learning to negotiate our space to suit everyone’s sensory needs.
11. Give your child space to grow and change.
Not just when puberty hits (boy howdy, this is where we are now, and it can be different for autistic kids—it can really scramble communication abilities, emotional stability, and coping capabilities), but in terms of autistic development being different than non-autistic development. I worry a lot about people whose families stop trying to teaching their kids skills because they’re past some imaginary development window, when autistic people actually tend to continue to gain skills throughout their lifetimes, more so than non-autistic people.
12. Give yourself time to figure out what your child really enjoys.
Surrender to that joy whenever possible. Your kid is a kid, after all. Don’t let people frame your kid’s enthusiasms in pathological terms like “special interest” or “splinter skill.” If your kid likes something, and they’re not hurting anyone, let them like liking it.
13. Give yourself time to plan for your child’s future without you.
For kids who do not have life-threatening health conditions, there’s no reason to think your child won’t outlive you. And that’s how you need to plan for their future—as one without you in it. Denial helps no one here, and could actually really imperil your child. So start figuring this out now, and then you’ll have one less thing to worry about.
I realize this is a lot (a lot!) of information to digest. Give yourself time to think it all over. If I just made you feel like you stepped into autism parenting information quicksand, come back later, or try to portion it out and think over various bits of advice as needed. Know that, even though I’ve been writing about parenting and autism since 2003, I honestly learn something new every day. I know I haven’t learned nearly enough yet—but I also know that my son and I both benefit whenever I learn something helpful. So keep on learning and loving, and let me know if I can ever help.
Note that I could put in a link for every assertion I made above, but then this would look even more like a research paper. If you want background on any unlinked topic, just ask. Please also know that this is a brief overview, and that I could write a separate essay on each point above.
*Disclosure: Our family was consulted in the writing of the book.
A Guide to Postmortem Parenting
by Will Bonner
If you want to use your money to hold influence over your children’s lives after yours has
ended, then this essay might be of interest…
Maurice Laboz, a Manhattan real estate mogul,
died recently, leaving $20 million to his two
His will is an interesting case study in
The girls — Marlena, 21; and Victoria, 17 —
will inherit $10 million each when they turn 35.
But they can get some of that money sooner if
they meet certain conditions set by their departed
Here are the terms according to the New York Post:
• Marlena will get $500,000 for tying the knot,
but only if her husband signs a sworn statement
promising to keep his hands off the cash.
• She nets another $750,000 if she graduates
“from an accredited university” and writes
“100 words or less describing what she intends
to do with the funds” — with the trustees
appointed by her dad to oversee her money
responsible for approving her essay.
• Both daughters get a big incentive to earn
decent salaries by 2020. Each young woman
is guaranteed to receive an annual payout of
three times the income listed on their personal
federal tax return. In a not-so-subtle nod
to the taxman, their checks will be cut every
• If the daughters have kids and don’t work
outside the house, the trustees will give them
each 3 percent of the value of their trust
every Jan. 1. There’s one catch: The money
flows only for a “child born in wedlock.”
• The sisters could earn the same amount being
“a caregiver” to their mother, Ewa Laboz,
58, whom their father was in the middle of
divorcing. She got nothing in the will and
has indicated that she will contest it.
On the face of it, these conditions are perfectly
reasonable. And it seems that the girls will get
their $10 million when they turn 35, whether they
comply with these terms or not.
But the marriage and college graduation
incentives apply only to the older daughter,
Marlena. It seems the younger daughter’s marriage
and college education are not subject to the same
terms, meaning she is not in line for these specific
Perceived inequality, even regarding some
minor thing, is big trouble when it comes to
But successful, type-A wealth creators are used
to getting their way. In death, as in life, they won’t
hesitate to punish the people, including family
members, who they feel wronged them and reward
Maurice Laboz did not offer equal incentives
to both girls.
Didn’t he want the same positive outcome
for both his daughters? Did he favor one girl
over the other? Or did one of them need more
encouragement than the other? The girls will
probably be asking those questions their entire lives.
to be continued
By Alex Green
I’ve always enjoyed Oscar Wilde’s comedy An Ideal Husband. But New York Times columnist Maureen Dowd is out to help women find the genuine item.
In a column, she shared the wisdom of Father Pat Connor, a Catholic priest with several decades of experience as a marriage counselor.
Too many women marry badly, he says, because infatuation trumps judgment. (I’m sure plenty of men have their own complaints, but today is Ladies’ Day.)
Father Conner advises women not to marry a man who has no friends, who is controlling or irresponsible with money, who is overly attached to his mother, or who has no sense of humor. He lists so many qualities to avoid, in fact, that one woman responded despairingly that he’d “eliminated everyone.”
The column generated a hailstorm of letters to the editor, including one from a Ms. Susan Striker of Easton, Connecticut. The twice-divorced woman insisted that Father Conner had only scratched the surface. She warned women:
Never marry a man who yells at you in front of his friends.
Never marry a man who is more affectionate in public than in private.
Never marry a man who notices all of your faults but never notices his own.
Never marry a man whose first wife had to sue him for child support.
Never marry a man who corrects you in public.
Never marry a man who sends birthday cards to his ex-girlfriends.
Never marry a man who doesn’t treat his dog nicely.
Never marry a man who is rude to waiters.
Never marry a man who doesn’t love music.
Never marry a man whose plants are all dead.
Never marry a man your mother doesn’t like.
Never marry a man your children don’t like.
Never marry a man who hates his job.
And so on…
Reading this laundry list, I wasn’t sure whether to laugh or cry.
Clearly, this was the voice of experience. And it made me think what, if anything, I could tell my own daughter to keep her from making a big mistake someday.
Of course, Hannah is only 17 now. But I already identify with comedian Bill Engvall. On one episode of his sitcom, he told his teenage daughter – to her utter mortification – that her date honking the horn out front needed to come inside and meet her parents first.
He does. But before the boy leaves, Engvall pulls him into another room and says, “That’s my only daughter right there and she is precious to me. So if you’ve got any ideas about making out or hooking up or whatever you call it these days, I just want you to know… I don’t mind going back to prison.”
I know more than a few fathers who can identify with that sentiment.
But the problem with the “never marry a man…” list is that it approaches the notion of an ideal man from a purely negative context.
Rather than telling my daughter what to beware of, I’ve only recommended that she marry “a gentleman.” But then what, exactly, is a gentleman in this day and age?
British born American writer Oliver Herford once remarked that a gentleman is someone “who never hurts anyone’s feelings unintentionally.” (This is always said with an emphasis on the word unintentionally so the listener understands that it’s okay if the recipient is deserving.)
But here’s a bit more specificity from John Walter Wayland, who defined the term in 1899:
The True Gentleman is the man whose conduct proceeds from good will and an acute sense of propriety, and whose self-control is equal to all emergencies; who does not make the poor man conscious of his poverty, the obscure man of his obscurity, or any man of his inferiority or deformity; who is himself humbled if necessity compels him to humble another; who does not flatter wealth, cringe before power, or boast of his own possessions or achievements; who speaks with frankness but always with sincerity and sympathy; whose deed follows his word; who thinks of the rights and feelings of others, rather than his own; and who appears well in any company, a man with whom honor is sacred and virtue safe.
Pretty much says it all, doesn’t it?
Perhaps the best thing for single men and women to do would be to cultivate these qualities of character in themselves. This would make them worthy of the affections of their ideal mate, should they have the good fortune to encounter him or her.
One final thought. You may remember Dr. Randy Pausch – the author of The Last Lecture – who succumbed to pancreatic cancer at 47 seven years ago this month.
He, too, struggled with this question and left behind this time capsule of advice for his daughter Chloe, then 2:
“When men are romantically interested in you, it’s really simple. Just ignore everything they say and only pay attention to what they do.”
Pretty good advice. And not a bad way of sizing up people generally.
In this dream I went to Dr. Botwin and Innella office to ask for a job since I worked there a long time ago. I started to cough and Dr. Botwin said to me “Let it out of you” he put a paper on the floor and I cough two big green nasty flames. He stood there with me after he went to talk to Dr. Innella. He called the secretary to bring him a specimen cup to put the green stuff that came out of me in there. The secretary said that her coffee machine was not working in a way she was saying that things have been going wrong for her. I felt better after I cough the green flame.
Dream on 8-23-12
A funeral of a woman but there’s no coffin, it’s a Caucasian woman, and her body was cut into pieces. A piece of her arm fell on the floor and I saw it but I was not scared. I was thinking of getting a box and offer it to them for the body but I said I’ll mind my business. I saw my daughter in a basement of a funeral home and I went to get her.
I saw the older children that I raised in a car but they were small. I started to look for something in the car while they were in the car. I started shaking my front tooth and it came loose, I pull it out and I saw one of the instructors and she had a jean jacket on. I went in the karate school, my kids were there but my daughter was hiding from her father and I cover for her. I saw four black men in the street and they started to dance and sing. I saw a yellow school bus following the four men like a parade. I went and asked a friend to help me get a job where she worked at; she called the place and gave them my number. I did manage to put my front tooth back in place without anyone notices the space in my mouth.
A Recent Dream
Two men came by to give me a message about my friend that was out of the country, I wanted to prepare a plate of food for them but the microwave wasn’t working and my sister didn’t want to help. She was busy with her son so I had to figure out how to make the microwave work. I did and I feed the two men, my sister asked me how it went, I told her that I figure out how to make the microwave work. She said that is good that you figure it out.
Dreamt on 8-22-2012
In this dream my ex husband is around me and our children but he’s not allow to speak to me. There’s a karate event and his older daughter was going to perform next but I had to go do somewhere and she really wanted me to be there but I told her that I can’t. I saw my daughter went in a bathroom and came out with no clothes on at first then my niece who my daughter is very close to like a sister, came also out of the bathroom without clothes so I told them they need to put clothes on now.
My Dream on 8-6-2012
I was at a mansion on top of a hill with a gate entrance and that is the only way to the home also someone has to drop an anchor to let you in. There were celebrities all over the place and one of them I went with and had a relationship with. After I got up and took a long stair up without looking back. I went to check different room and one had two men about to have intercourse and I asked the one that is my friend “do you know if that man you ‘ r with if he is safe?” he answered I don’t know. After a few minutes they couldn’t t get it on and the strange man came out of the room and I started talking to him. He said that he wants to have good times that are all and I ordered him to leave the party. He didn’t want to go so I escorted him to the exit and made sure he left. The party was wild with so many people; it looks like a Jean family party. I also saw three women that were trying to get me to go to the spa area and they said that they had a bath waiting for me but I told them I can’t now. I also saw in one room a young lady singing.
In this dream, my daughter asked me for a sandwich for school and I told her we need to go to the market to get the items. When we get there I told her to go ahead and look for the items. As I am pushing the shopping cart, I saw a man with Russian feature and he told me that he lived in Connecticut but he did not look like he had money.
In this dream I saw my friend Martine with a baby boy and then I saw Wyclef Jean carried a baby boy with him and he didn’t want anyone to see the child. The baby was in a baby carriage.
In my next dream I saw that I was dressing in a black dress and wear also black shoes and I was going to a wedding. Apparently it was Kassy that was getting married. We went in a house and part of the house was a different area and it was beautiful. There was a girl in the bathroom taking a shower.
In another dream I was at the karate school and everything was new and fixed really nice. I sat at the front desk with one of my kids and one parent came and said to me “I fixed this corner very nice.” The parent was looking also at the paper on the desk then I went to the bathroom, I noticed that the bathroom was so filthy and the toilet had poo or as you say number two on the seat and I started to clean the bathroom.
My Dream on 7-3-2012
I dreamt that I went to victor from Rhingo and I was with my children to ask him to give me $300.00 for a job I did for him. I saw he was getting shirts from a vendor and he was hanging them after he was going to steam them. I asked him for the money and he asked the vendor or distributor to give him the money and he gave it to me. I took the money and left with my kids. We were looking for route 1 & 9 and when we got there I noticed my friend’s husband was there but in my dream they were just engaged.
I had dinner with my kids and I took them to our room and I left to meet with my friend’s fiancé. While I was there the hotel manager was being nosy and wanted to know what my story is.
A mail came for my friend’s fiancé and it was receipts and he looked at them to try to understand what was going on. He noticed that they were bills that my friend charged to his accounts and credit cards and his father wanted to show him that my friend was taking him to the cleaner.
My ex made sure that he did everything he can do so I can lose the business, my house and my car. I called to people who I knew in the church and the martial arts, their answer was Miss Theresa ask me for anything else but do not ask me to help you at the dojo. The people at the church said I will tell the pastor was it going on but the pastor had his own stuffs to deal with. My ex scared them and they feared for their lives. He knew the tricks of the street unlike me I was raised in a shelter and safe environment. I was raised to be nice to people and help people since I am the oldest of nine children. The oldest helped carry the burdens since my father died. I was also spoiled by my father and my mother and I spoiled myself also.
At first I was trying to teach the oldest son that I raised the same way but he was smart , clever and his birth mother brainwashed him about me, she always hate me. He wanted no part of that kind of thinking, lol great for him. I wished I had that kind of determination to do the same thing like he did. He left to find his own race that was wisdom. He cared about himself and that was good for him. He wasn’t going to be responsible to no one else but himself, I respected him for that.
Free Moral Agents
Theresa said “The truth is that we live among free moral agents who often choose evil, resulting in inescapable trouble for others.” Jim Cymbala author of Breakthrough Prayer
Example of such people is the mastermind and cohorts of 9/11 and others who live among us.
The young lady that I raised since she was two and a half years old, I loved her like my own because I am capable of that. I raised one of my brothers when my mother left for the state to make a better living so she can give us the best. The young lady got brainwashed just liked Mat did with me but she will understand the truth later on. Just liked I understand her mother now what she went through because of his lied. I told him that his children need their mom when they were with us. I called her and asked her for help with the older son when he was going to his bad stage but she answered that she can’t. It was the hardest time in my life. I started to hold grudges against her cause I didn’t understand how can she just left.
He didn’t care that the mother of his older children were not there for them; in his mind everyone is replaceable just like him. The spirit that took him hostage ruled him and he had no sympathy for no one. That spirit is the same that embody his new wife, they r lost souls. He knows in his dream that the evil spirit came for him but he wanted me to stop the spirit but I was too tired. I fought too much in my natural being to stay alive. I had too many against me and some said they were Christians which made it worst. They used white magic to hurt people and the one that called themselves pastors, brothers were against marriage, they were dividers. Sunday school teacher with no soul just knowledge of the bible but no good spirit. That young lady helped her father with his lied and she was still young therefore she didn’t know the outcome of her being a helper. She has not experience motherhood or marriage.
More of my Dreams
I dreamt that I had a baby boy and I introduce him to my friend Melky Jean. Before that my mother brought the baby to me and I breastfed him while I sat outside and I had so much milk that I had to put a cup on the other breast that he wasnt’ t using to get his milk. I saw that I am happy, after I fed him he fell asleep again, I went to a house to look for a sandal and there was someone taking a bath in the bathroom so I couldn’t go there. I went to another room I saw a bag and inside were the uniforms of my children from when they attended Abundant Life Academy. I looked inside for the sandal but it wasn’t there then I looked around the house and I saw a pair that match and I put it on my feet and went outside the porch. That’s went Melky Jean came in and I told her about my baby. We went for a walk and the baby was still in my hand asleep and he opened his eyes, I noticed that the baby is my son Anthony. He is so handsome and I love him so much.
I dreamt that I was in a car and my mother was driving, we were on the way to church. We came to a stop sign and the traffic was going the wrong direction, I told my mother to cross over ago to the next street in the right direction but she didn’t want to. She froze so I told her to move over so I can drive in the right direction. We got there and we walk in the small street and I saw a lady inside a beauty salon and we keep walking. When we got there I went upstairs and I sat on the table with the pastor and two other people, the pastor was teaching Latin. At the end of the meeting he said something but I didn’t hear what he said so I asked the other person and the person told me that the pastor said “The world”. After I went in the back and I saw the pastor children in a room and they were talking to each other. I tried to leave so I went in the basement and it was dark but I still managed to get out.
March 22, 2012
I dreamt that I went to a small hospital that have also a nice mall downstairs and apparently my kids were there with me. I went to visit the patients in all the rooms in the hospital and one young lady had to get a procedure where the technologist put dye in her veins and followed it all the way to her heart. I ended up in a room and the Bishop that married me before came to visit the same patient. While the nurse was putting the IV for her, the Bishop started to talk to me about his family that was nice. My ex husband came in to see the lady that was in the next bed, she was very heavy and he picked up the lady in his arm and he was sad. I looked outside I saw my ex husband new wife was with three other Caucasian ladies and they were poking their heads to spied on what was going on. Anyway I didn’t pay any attention to them and I went to the elevator to meet a friend of mine that was there and we started to talk about what just happen. I explained to her how my ex lied then it was time for me to go home but the kids were not there so I figured that they left with their father so I called them and they confirmed that they left with him and he’ll drop them home to me. Then his wife called me and said ” did my husband called you” and I answered no and I proceed to tell her that she knew that her husband lied about me but she started to argued with me and I just said to her never mind. That helped me to understand that she made him lied about me.
Dream on 4-5-2012
In this dream I went to visit a family in a building and they were on the third floor, the apartment was full of family and the stairs were full of so many clothes also. It looked like people used the stairs as a dumpster. The apartment turn into a school and my kids were there so was their father and his new wife. I noticed that I brought chicken and I served everyone than a feast start with lobster, clam, fish and a big plate of paella.
After I want to take some of the expensive foods but my ex-husband wife told me no because she’ll make a plate for me. She was happy to be the lady of the party; I told her it’s ok. She looked happy and I saw that she started to dance because the music was playing. She was putting on a show for everyone. I had more chicken on the stove so I took an aluminum foil and took the rest of it without anyone knowledge. I left the party and my kids were on the deck and I kiss them goodbye.
My dream on March 29, 2012
I dreamt that I was at a place that I worked before for a meeting, all the family was there and I sat behind my old desk in the office. I saw that my sister brought me a baby boy, he’s so handsome and I had to change his diaper because he urinates. My sister handed me the diaper bag and I empty the bag on the desk, inside the diaper bag were expensive items for the baby. Then I woke up.
My dream on March 29, 2012
I dreamt that I was at a place that I worked before for a meeting, all the family was there and I sat behind my old desk in the office. I saw that my sister brought me a baby boy, he’s so handsome and I had to change his diaper because he urinates. My sister handed me the diaper bag and I empty the bag on the desk, inside the diaper bag were expensive items for the baby. Then I woke up.
My dream on March 24, 2012
In this dream, I saw my ex-husband was over my house and our children were there also, we were on good term. Then he said to me, “I need my wife to sign the paper for me to buy a house”. After a while I heard his wife outside screaming and going crazy so he went outside to her and they started to argue and fight. He asked another lady we knew to come to the house with the contract so he and his wife can sign the paper. His wife came in my house and she was still upset and she said to me, “I don’t have money to buy foods, clothes or anything else for me and my kids.” Another lady from my church came to my house with her family and I told her what was going on. Then I woke up.