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Memory and Intelligence

People commonly repress memories of traumatic experiences and hypnosis can be useful for retrieving these memories. Some people have a problem with depression or eating disorder which are issues from a trauma that happened to the person. Childhood abuse or incest which the person cannot recall can be remembered through hypnosis by a therapist.

      Women and men had traumatic events occurred to them. Childhood sexual abuse prevalence is 28 percent of women and 16 percent of men. Physical abuse as a child prevalence is 40 percent of women and 53 percent of men. Any type of event that happens quick and life-threatening is something traumatic. A child's parent went to the hospital and died suddenly is a form of trauma. The child can forget her whole life experiences before the trauma, it just erased like the child was never alive. Other times traumatic events overlap, for example, a child got abused and right after the abuser kick the child out of the house. Children and young adulthood trauma might need to deal with loneliness, betrayal of boundaries, trust issues, isolation, and vulnerability. Schnelzer,  (2018).

Although they are several treatments, the person seeks such as dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), acceptance and commitment therapy (ACT). A parent can cause a child not to trust also when the parent does not validate the child’s needs, for example, a child says” Mommy, I want to eat.” The parent denies the child’s needs and says “No, you are not hungry.”
Trauma changes a person basic belief about people and the world, therefore, it is better to get help from professionals. Trauma is when you react with fear, helplessness or horror from an experience. It can take a toll on your physical health as your mental health. The person might turn to smoke, overeating, drinking alcohol or use drugs to deal with bad emotions.
Another way to deal with trauma is using dissociate defense “leaving the body” or disappearing. The event or trauma is stored in a different hard drive. The loss of language can be the result of trauma because that part of the brain was offline.
The stress from trauma can be detrimental and it can kill the person. However, with the proper therapy can help the person to deal with the stress. Although the person might repress the event of trauma once the person understands his or her personality, the road to recovery would be easy.
In order for the person to get heal, he or she must go back to the time the trauma occurred. Relationship with others could be null as a defense mechanism unless the other person had the same trauma. The person may experience tightness in the chest, feelings of fear, shame or powerless and knot in the stomach are all side effect of the trauma.
A person will create protective habits to survive trauma, therefore, it can be very hard to unlearn. Some people can numb their senses, it helps change how a person takes the information. Raja, (2012).

          Freud and Janet stated the correlation between such problems as eating disorder or depression could be an underline suppress the memory of a history of childhood abuse or incest which the clients have no recollection of. The two-psychologist used hypnosis to help the client to remember the trauma. They used this type of therapy to help the patient with his or her present's symptoms. Orne, Whitehouse, Orne & Dinges. (2009).

     The first technological war was the first world war, ten million people died on the battlefield and many others got hurt physically and mentally. (Keegan 3; Winter 15-53). Lots of soldiers suffered from hysterical symptoms, such as deafness and some visual impairment. Hypnosis was used at that time to help them psychologically. Some of the doctors did not believe in hypnosis and they think the doctor who performed hypnosis can overpower the patients similar to rape. Hales. (2011).

       Scholars from the early history of mesmerism and hypnotism did not find proof of retrieval memory during the late 1700s and early to mid-1800s. They did not find any evidence and they believed that Gassner told the patients they had the devil in them and that was the reason of trembling or shaking of the body. Some of the patients were exorcism which is the case of satanic or multiple personalities. Patihis, Burton & Helena J. (2015).

         Hypnosis is used by the therapist to help a person to remember a trauma, Therapist use hypnoanalysis which was made on the theory that ' repressed traumatic memories' can be reached by hypnosis to cure the person of psychological sickness. Hypnosis helps people to remember an unpleasant event. The therapist takes the person back to something that happened when the person was young. Mark P. (2011).

Hypnosis is placebo without deception. Kirsh, (1994); Raz, (2007). A person suffered a traumatic event which left the person without the recollection of the event, can work with a therapist to use hypnosis to retrieve the memory.


Gretchen L. Schnelzer, Ph.D. (2018). Journey through Trauma, A trail guide to the 5-Phase cycle of Healing Repeated Trauma

Jensen, Mark P. (2011). Hypnosis for chronic Pain Management

Hales, Barbara;(2011). Seminar: A Journal of Germanic Studies, Nov; 47 (5): 578-590. (journal article), Database: MLA International Bibliography
Subjects: trauma; neurosis; hypnosis; Wiene, Robert; The Hands of Orlac

Martin T. Orne, Wayne G. Whitehouse, Emily Carota Orne & David F. Dinges. (2009). “Memories” of Anomalous and Traumatic Autobiographical Experiences: Validation and Consolidation of Fantasy Through Hypnosis

Patihis, Lawrence; Younes Burton, Helena J.;(2015) Psychology of Consciousness: Theory, Research, and Practice, Vol 2(2), pp. 153-169. Publisher: Educational Publishing Foundation; [Journal Article], Database: PsycARTICLES

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Sheela, Raja, Ph.D. (2012). Overcoming Trauma and PTSD

How to Fulfill Your Vision

Keys to Fulfilling Your Vision
by Lawrence Powell

Sight is a function of the eyes; vision is a function of the heart. Some people have eyes to see, but they have no vision. Faith is the ability to see farther than your natural eyes can look. Vision makes the unseen visible and the unknown possible. It is the bridge between the present and the future; without it, we perish or go unrestrained. The vision includes perimeters. When you understand your calling, you will know that every good idea is not a God idea. There are some things and some people that you will need to avoid when you are clear on vision. If you want to be wise, you’ve got to walk with the wise. And you have to walk with the visionaries if you want to have a clear vision.

Vision is seeing the ultimate purpose of God for your life. Often were so determined to do our own thing we head down the wrong path; that will always bring us to a Damascus Road experience. Remember Paul, a man who thought he was doing the work of God, but in reality was opposing Gods work? What got him on track? His encounter with God on the Damascus Road.

God has a vision for each of us. He that hath begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6). Jeremiah 29:11 says, For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future. Vision gives us a clear sense of purpose and direction. What is it that you want to do with your life? As believers in Christ, we should have a vision beyond where we are right now. It doesn’t matter how old you are: you should have a vision for tomorrow.

Vision helps us to set meaningful goals and keep things in perspective. It helps us to avoid being defined by circumstances and people’s opinions. People will try to define and limit you. Don’t allow it. Stop believing the negative things people say. See yourself as God sees you as a citizen of the Kingdom, seated together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus. Stop seeing yourself as broken, busted and disgusted! If that’s all you can see in your future, then that’s all you will ever have.

There is much that we can learn from the prophet Habakkuk. He was discouraged with the nation of Israel. The people were double-minded, walking with God one day and turning their backs on Him the next. Habakkuk went to God about it, and the Lord gave him a vision. He needed that vision to bring him hope and purpose. Sometimes we need the same!

Let’s look at the principles involved in visions, as we consider Habakkuk’s experience in Habakkuk 2:1-4:

1) Pray: If you don’t know what your vision is, get in touch with God. Talk to your Creator. Proverbs 20:5 says, The purposes of a person heart are deep waters, but one who has insight draws them out. Proverbs 19:20-21, says, Many is the plans and purposes of a person’s heart, but its the Lords purpose that prevails. You might think you’re headed in one direction, but God says, I’ve got a different plan for you. So get quiet before the Lord. God doesn’t want you to live aimlessly. He will teach you and show you the way to go if you let Him (Psalm 32:8).

2) Identify your passion: Habakkuk 2:1 says, I will stand my watch and set myself on the rampart and watch and see what He will say to me. Vision is often birthed out of a burden God places on our hearts or from a personal experience or particular problem. Some people see a problem and discover they have a passion to resolve that problem. What are you passionate about? Godly passion is the key to discovering your vision. Standing watch has to do with being intensely attentive; it also involves separation from crowds, people, and distractions. Why is this necessary? Because your vision is uncommon. You are uncommon!

3) Write the vision: If it was important to God that Habakkuk write out the vision and make it plain (v.2), then you should do it as well. Remember, out of sight, out of mind. And if it’s out of mind, you’re not doing anything about it. At first, your vision might not make a lot of sense to you, but write down what you see and hear. A vision that is not written will be a vision that is soon forgotten. A written vision gives you something that you can look at, pray over and declare. Writing your vision is an expression of your faith.

4) Run with the vision: Habakkuk was told to run with the vision, not run from it (v.2). Some people get a vision, then get scared and back off. But if God has given you a vision, He wants you to run with it. Your vision must be your constant focus. You must wake up in the morning with it and dream about it at night. Your activities must be in line with the vision to which God has called you. But be aware: If God has called you in one direction and you’re moving in another, then you need to get on track with the vision. Live for it every day. Vision + Action = Realization.

5) Rest in Gods timing: This is the most difficult, yet most important thing to do! Though it tarries, wait for it, because it will surely come… (v.3). God’s timing and ways are rarely the same as ours. Waiting on God can be quite challenging because we’re impatient. We want things now; however, our lives must line up with Gods desires in His timing. We must be careful not to allow impatience to lead us astray like it did with Abraham and Sarah. Isaac was in the mind of God. But Abraham and Sarah, given the impatience that is often born out of delay, said, Maybe God wants us to help Him out. So they schemed and planned, and as a result, they produced Ishmael. Whenever we allow impatience to take the lead, it will produce Ishmaels in our lives, too.

6) Don’t give up: Wait for your vision to unfold. It will manifest. Wait without murmuring or complaining. While you wait, serve faithfully in the Kingdom. Often your vision will unfold in stages. Everything doesn’t happen overnight. One door leads to other open doors. Be sensitive, and you’ll be in the right place at the right time. Don’t hang out with people who aren’t going anywhere. If you do, you’ll end up in the same place nowhere! Instead, get with people who can speak into your life, encourage you, help you set the stage, and figure out some strategy they will help you to get where you need to go!

7) Live by faith: …but the just shall live by faith (v.4). We must live our faith and live by faith. That’s the Christian edict. We find in Scripture that we live, walk and stand by faith. When God gives you a vision, it will be God-sized! If it requires finances that you don’t have, God will supply them; wherever God guides you, He will provide for you. Faith without works is dead. Remember, the blessing is in the doing, according to James 1:25. Keep this in mind, my friend, as you go ahead in life to fulfill your vision.

4 Ways to Develop a Culture of Respect and Trust

4 Ways to Develop a Culture of Respect and Trust

By Greg Besner @CulturelQ


Employee engagement is a huge challenge today that every company is trying to tackle. What makes employees happy? What keeps them around? And what can we (as leaders, entrepreneurs and fellow colleagues) do about it?

Last week the Society for Human Resource Management released a report stating that “respectful treatment of all employees” was the number-one contributor to job satisfaction. And “trust between employees and senior management” was the second. What an amazingly simple idea for a surprisingly common challenge.

This means that above all of the perks and management tricks, treating each other like people is what really matters. Whether you’re starting a company or part of growing one, developing a culture of respect and trust should be a priority.

1. Listen to each other.

Communication is at the core of human relationships, and it should be no different with your colleagues. Open a dialogue by listening and making people feel comfortable sharing. This is an ongoing process that should go beyond a single engagement survey each year. Collect regular, ongoing employee feedback — and all forms of feedback at that.

Send pulse surveys, host focus groups, plan one-on-one meetings and participate in conversations around the office whenever possible. Sometimes the best feedback happens in these casual settings, when formal barriers are not in place.  

2. Show employees that you care.

In the same way you nod to someone to show them you are listening, make sure employees know you are listening by communicating the findings of any feedback they have provided.

Through my research interviewing hundreds of companies, it stood out to me how well-intentioned feedback efforts can backfire if nothing is done with the new information. Employees want to know that their voices aren’t falling into a black hole. If you can’t make the recommended changes, simply explain why. It’s scary, but transparency like this goes a long way to create a culture of respect and trust.

3. Help each other.

People who respect each other help each other. They support each other as employees and as people. Not only does this mean that employees will have richer, more positive relationships at work but also when there is a culture of support, employees won’t be afraid to ask for help. This ultimately makes everyone more comfortable and effective in his or her job.

4. Encourage everyone to be themselves.

The team-building events at my company CultureIQ, a business providing company culture-management software, have ranged from hiking to volunteering at a soup kitchen and a competitive game night at a local jazz bar. The common thread to these diverse (and seemingly unrelated) events is the team behind it.

Each month we pass the planning of our culture events to a different member of our team, and thus, each employee has an opportunity to bring his or her personality to the table. Not only do we get to know each other during the event itself, but we learn something about each employee through the event they plan. Hiking isn’t everyone’s favorite activity, but it certainly speaks to our product manager’s love for the outdoors, and we all are able to respect and appreciate that together.

The next time you find yourself stumped at retaining and engaging employees, just remember that it comes down to two surprisingly simple concepts: respect and trust.



The Truth About Money

by Craig Ballantyne, editor

Deep inside the SLS Hotel in Las Vegas lies a cavernous, and carnivorous, restaurant called Bazaar. Helmed by the celebrity chef, Jose Andres, you can order the finest charcuterie, rib eye steaks 2.5 inches thick, and if you call a day in advance, a whole suckling pig delivered to your table (recommended for groups of 6 or more). It’s not cheap, but it’s worth the visit. Last month, my friend and business partner Bedros Keuilian and I went to Bazaar and brought along our friend Andy. Young Andy was in awe of the restaurant, and the prices. He’s just getting started in his career and hasn’t yet built a proper money mindset. The right money mindset doesn’t mean throwing money around to show off, or wasting it on frivolous purchases. The right money mindset means that you know how to attract opportunity and properly allocate your capital. Bedros and I are good stewards of our money. Bedros has built several multi-million dollar businesses, and as a result, he lives the good life. Sure, he has treated himself to a couple of toys, a Nissan GTR and a few nice watches, but other than that, he wisely reinvests his profits back into his rapidly growing business, invests in rental real estate, and supports his family of four. More importantly, the good life also allows him to be a servant to others. He’s donated over $200,000 to Shriners Hospital, and he’s coached thousands of personal trainers to grow their businesses and, in turn, help tens of thousands of men and women transform their bodies and their lives.

Bedros has also built a franchise, Fit Body Boot Camp, where each week over 49,000 clients visit a location for a workout. Think about that for a moment. Bedros is directly responsible for helping almost 50,000 people lose weight, look great, and get healthy — all because he has the right money mindset and was willing to take action on his big ideas. Having the right money mindset has also led to our Mastermind Group. Bedros and I know that we need to celebrate our success by giving back and coaching others. We help people build businesses similar to ours. This month, we’ll have our annual Information Marketing Workshop in California with over 100 attendees, including several ETR readers, where we’ll teach people to make money — and how to have the right money mindset. The right money mindset starts a virtuous cycle. When you have it, you make more money, invest more money, and have more money. And doing all of that brings more opportunity back to you so that you can make more money. That was the big lesson we wanted to teach our young friend Andy in Vegas. “When you serve others,” I told him, “You attract the opportunity to make a lot of money.” “And if you have the right money mindset,” Bedros said, “You’ll deliver value and receive value in return. You’ll grow wealthy and be able to help more people, and that is a good thing, despite what you hear in the news and despite the negative talk you hear from other people, or worse, in your own mind.” “Plus, having the right money mindset allows you to make the right decisions with your money once you’ve earned it,” I said to Andy, who was getting excited at the prospect of getting rich. “Basically, the right money mindset guarantees that you will continue to grow your wealth, rather than losing your fortune, as has happened to so many others.”

“So how do I get the right money mindset?” Andy asked? It’s a great question. Everyone needs help with getting the right money mindset. Bedros and I have slightly different approaches, of course, because while the right money mindset is a general concept, the details are specific to each individual. The help you need for getting the right money mindset is unique to your situation. Some folks need help making money, others need help saving money, and some folks need help spending money. It’s tough to wrap up a generic money mindset lesson, but I’ll do my best. In my opinion, the best approach to a healthy Money Mindset is… To not need a lot of money… You must be able to overcome the power that money has over most people. If you can agree with the following statement, then you have the right relationship with money. If the world was to take all your earthly possessions and ask you, “What do you have left?” and you could truthfully reply, “Everything,” with a calm smile on your face, knowing that you have your family, friends, and integrity, then you, my friend, have lived the right way and won the game of life. Count your riches in relationships. Now all that being said… We’re here to make money. But if you can truly live by the statement above, then you will make the right decisions right now for your right life and your future. You won’t take short-term gains that sacrifice long term wins. To make money, you must have Big Ideas and you must add value to the world through the implementation of your ideas. You need to surround yourself with others that think big, like you, and that will support you on your quest to add value. This is why it’s so important for people to get out of their bubbles and attend events, connect outside of the industry, and hang around people that play up a level. If you only talked to your neighbor in your hometown, then you’d think that making $40,000 was good enough and getting a $1,000 tax refund every April was a big bonus. It’s not. But if you hang around Go-Givers, generous people that are wealthier than you, then you will see what is truly possible when you have a BIG IDEA that adds value to the lives of millions. That’s when the Money Game is ON. So it comes down to this. The truth about money is… “Your wealth is the average of the wealth of the five people you spend the most time with.” The No. 1 thing you can do today to improve your money mindset is to play UP a level. That might mean taking a millionaire to lunch, joining a Mastermind group, or hiring your first business coach. You need to attend seminars and be in the room with Bedros, Mark Ford, Tim Ferriss, Dan Kennedy, Oprah, Sara Blakely, Tony Robbins, and so on and so forth. Your money mindset, your habits, and your ability to generate big ideas are all greatly influenced by other people. Fixing your money mindset starts with choosing the right external factors — your friends and your environment. Go to good places. Spend time with good people and you will get the right money mindset on your side so that you’ll attract great opportunity into your life.

God Always Has A Strategy

God Always Has A Strategy
by Lawrence Powell

The word is out concerning you, my friend. You are anointed! Your anointing is powerful, conspicuous, attractive. It’s not mystical, but the manifest presence and power of God that is particularly evident in and upon your life as a believer.

As far as the anointing is concerned, you either have it or you don’t. Until David was anointed king over Israel, he had no Philistine enemies. Once he was anointed, they began to plan attacks against him (2 Samuel 5:17-25). David discovered not only his calling, but also his enemies.

The Philistines spread themselves across the Valley of Rephaim, which means, “the valley of giants.” We all will face giants at some point. Giants are anything that distract our focus from God, deter us from our service to God, and drain us of our driving passion for God. There are many giants. You may have met the giants of fear, anxiety, worry, loneliness, guilt, shame, pride, jealousy, selfishness, lust, and greed already on your journey. Giants can be intimidating, but there’s no need for you to be afraid or to bow to them. If God allows a giant in your life, He allows it with purpose. That may be to test your faith so you can experience victory. No trials, no triumphs. You can’t have a testimony, without a test!

O. S. Hawkins said, “A problem is the platform upon which God desires to show how wonderful He can provide.” Our God has never performed a miracle that did not begin at the platform of a problem. If you have a problem, you’re in the right place for God to show up and show out on your behalf!

David, upon hearing that his enemies had come out in full force against him, inquired of the Lord. Please note that. In critical times, be sure to get a word from the Lord! Don’t ever become presumptuous in your anointed self. David didn’t assume to act; he prayed about it. Prayer requires humility.

God gave David a strategy that day that delivered the Philistines into his hands. He named the spot of their defeat Baal Perazim, or “Lord of the Breakthrough.” My friend, your breakthrough is in the strategy. And God always has a strategy.

Isn’t it amazing that as you’re celebrating victory over one thing, along comes something else to test your faith? While David was still rejoicing over his victory in the valley, the Bible says the Philistines came out in full force once more against David. Don’t think you’re just going to have one attack in your anointed life. The attacks will be relentless. The good news is that your victory is also relentless!

Bishop T.D. Jakes said, “For every struggle in your life, there is a strategy.” God has a strategy for your family, your habit, your money, your attitude – for everything! Sometimes, however, those strategies sound ridiculous. Consider Moses in front of the Red Sea, and God said, “Stretch out your hand.” Or Joshua outside the fortified walls of Jericho, who was told to march around the wall for six days, and on the seventh day of marching, the wall would fall down. How about Samson, who was inspired to use the jawbone of a dead donkey to defend himself? Then there was Jesus, Who told the disciples to feed over 5,000 people with five small fish and two loaves of bread. There is always a strategy from God, but it often will sound crazy. However, if you submit to it, it will work!

Here, the Philistines had spread themselves once again across the Valley of Giants, and David inquired of the Lord a second time (verse 23). This was true humility, because David could have simply gone off the word given to him by God previously. He could have assumed he knew how to handle his own affairs. Instead, he inquired of the Lord a second time! Please do not assume that God will always duplicate deliverance methods. God is not that predictable! Don’t limit His methods. And don’t get cocky. You’re sure to fail if you think you’ve got this on your own.

God desires cooperation! He already knows everything about your enemy, the giant, the problem. Trust Him enough to submit to His purpose and plan. Don’t allow your relationship with Him to grow stale. Keep it fresh every morning. I’ve discovered that whenever we truly minister to the Lord, as described in Acts 13, the Holy Spirit will speak. The problem we often have is that we give God no time, so we cannot hear Him speaking. We insist on doing things our own way, and we come up empty-handed every time. When will you pause for a moment, shut it down, and spend time with God until you hear from Him?

If God’s ever done it before, He can do it again. He can bring you victory over your enemies. You just have to trust Him. Acknowledge Him with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. This time, it’s going to be big, just like it was last time, and God’s name will be glorified through your trust in Him!

The anointing removes burdens and destroys yokes (Isaiah 10:27). Anything that’s broken may likely be repaired, but when it’s destroyed, that’s it! It cannot be repaired. It cannot hold you captive or hold you back any more! That’s the anointing of the power of the living Christ at work within us!

When purpose and destiny converge, things can get a little turbulent. Your anointing will be celebrated by some, but it will be intimidating to others. It will cause some people to treat you like you are far more important than you could ever be. It will attract every kind of hater – even ones who don’t know you! Keep this in mind: the anointing of God is not about you; it’s all about Jesus!

The touch of God will make a difference. The enemy knows the touch of God on you is dangerous, and that’s why he wants to shut down what you’re doing. He knows if he leaves you alone, anointed people will do what anointed people do: remove burdens, set captives free, and frustrate his plans!

Like David, you have been anointed, graced of the Lord, fully resourced, called and selected. Yes, there are attacks and, yes, there are giants you must face. I pray you take seriously this word I’ve shared with you today and implement it immediately. I want you to see victory in every area of your life! My hope is that you will have such a hunger and thirst for God that you do not just inquire of Him often, but always! Never allow presumption to take the place of genuine faith in God. Doing so is foolishness. Doing so is dangerous! Do not be just a hearer of the Word, but a doer also. Only in Christ will you see giants die and find lasting victory today and in the days to come!



There’s a saying do not wake Adam from his sleep, what it means is if a man is not making the right move in a direction of a relationship or commitment do not push him or help him make up his mind.

In Theresa’s case Mat wasn’t ready for a relationship or marriage especially since he couldn’t come up with all the money for a down payment for the house that he wanted to buy. However Theresa went and took all her saving and lend it to him then she realized that he wasn’t to pay her back. She was already in a relationship with him and he acted like a good man at that time. She saw the potential so she decided to go for him, she was thirty years old and in her culture that’s consider an old maid if you’re not married.

Theresa’s mom told her that she was the oldest of nine children and the baby after her died stillborn. The next children are twins and they are very close and they support each other. After the twins is Theresa’s brother whom is the spitting image and personalities of Theresa’s dad. The next baby after her brother died also but Theresa’s mom didn’t know that the baby next to her was dead until her sister came to visit her at the hospital noticed that the baby was dead. Theresa’s mom told her that the baby was so beautiful and had long legs and arms. Her mother left the hospital without paying a dime because the hospital staffs were negligent so a friend of Theresa’s mom told her to just leave the hospital without any discharge paper so she didn’t have to pay the hospital. Soon Theresa’s mom got pregnant and gave birth to a beautiful baby girl by herself because in the last trimester Theresa’s dad died suddenly from pneumonia. Her other two brother’s are from a different father and we are brothers and sisters.

Weird Dreams

In this dream I went to Dr. Botwin and Innella office to ask for a job since I worked there a long time ago. I started to cough and Dr. Botwin said to me “Let it out of you” he put a paper on the floor and I cough two big green nasty flames. He stood there with me after he went to talk to Dr. Innella. He called the secretary to bring him a specimen cup to put the green stuff that came out of me in there. The secretary said that her coffee machine was not working in a way she was saying that things have been going wrong for her. I felt better after I cough the green flame.


Dream on 8-23-12

A funeral of a woman but there’s no coffin, it’s a Caucasian woman, and her body was cut into pieces. A piece of her arm fell on the floor and I saw it but I was not scared. I was thinking of getting a box and offer it to them for the body but I said I’ll mind my business. I saw my daughter in a basement of a funeral home and I went to get her.

I saw the older children that I raised in a car but they were small. I started to look for something in the car while they were in the car. I started shaking my front tooth and it came loose, I pull it out and I saw one of the instructors and she had a jean jacket on. I went in the karate school, my kids were there but my daughter was hiding from her father and I cover for her. I saw four black men in the street and they started to dance and sing. I saw a yellow school bus following the four men like a parade. I went and asked a friend to help me get a job where she worked at; she called the place and gave them my number. I did manage to put my front tooth back in place without anyone notices the space in my mouth.


A Recent Dream

Two men came by to give me a message about my friend that was out of the country, I wanted to prepare a plate of food for them but the microwave wasn’t working and my sister didn’t want to help. She was busy with her son so I had to figure out how to make the microwave work. I did and I feed the two men, my sister asked me how it went, I told her that I figure out how to make the microwave work. She said that is good that you figure it out.


Dreamt on 8-22-2012

In this dream my ex husband is around me and our children but he’s not allow to speak to me. There’s a karate event and his older daughter was going to perform next but I had to go do somewhere and she really wanted me to be there but I told her that I can’t. I saw my daughter went in a bathroom and came out with no clothes on at first then my niece who my daughter is very close to like a sister, came also out of the bathroom without clothes so I told them they need to put clothes on now.


My Dream on 8-6-2012

I was at a mansion on top of a hill with a gate entrance and that is the only way to the home also someone has to drop an anchor to let you in. There were celebrities all over the place and one of them I went with and had a relationship with. After I got up and took a long stair up without looking back. I went to check different room and one had two men about to have intercourse and I asked the one that is my friend “do you know if that man you ‘ r with if he is safe?” he answered I don’t know. After a few minutes they couldn’t t get it on and the strange man came out of the room and I started talking to him. He said that he wants to have good times that are all and I ordered him to leave the party. He didn’t want to go so I escorted him to the exit and made sure he left. The party was wild with so many people; it looks like a Jean family party. I also saw three women that were trying to get me to go to the spa area and they said that they had a bath waiting for me but I told them I can’t now. I also saw in one room a young lady singing.


Dream 8-20-2012

In this dream, my daughter asked me for a sandwich for school and I told her we need to go to the market to get the items.  When we get there I told her to go ahead and look for the items. As I am pushing the shopping cart, I saw a man with Russian feature and he told me that he lived in Connecticut but he did not look like he had money.



In this dream I saw my friend Martine with a baby boy and then I saw Wyclef Jean carried a baby boy with him and he didn’t want anyone to see the child. The baby was in a baby carriage.

In my next dream I saw that I was dressing in a black dress and wear also black shoes and I was going to a wedding. Apparently it was Kassy that was getting married. We went in a house and part of the house was a different area and it was beautiful. There was a girl in the bathroom taking a shower.

In another dream I was at the karate school and everything was new and fixed really nice. I sat at the front desk with one of my kids and one parent came and said to me “I fixed this corner very nice.” The parent was looking also at the paper on the desk then I went to the bathroom, I noticed that the bathroom was so filthy and the toilet had poo or as you say number two on the seat and I started to clean the bathroom.


My Dream on 7-3-2012

I dreamt that I went to victor from Rhingo and I was with my children to ask him to give me $300.00 for a job I did for him. I saw he was getting shirts from a vendor and he was hanging them after he was going to steam them. I asked him for the money and he asked the vendor or distributor to give him the money and he gave it to me. I took the money and left with my kids. We were looking for route 1 & 9 and when we got there I noticed my friend’s husband was there but in my dream they were just engaged.

I had dinner with my kids and I took them to our room and I left to meet with my friend’s fiancé. While I was there the hotel manager was being nosy and wanted to know what my story is.

A mail came for my friend’s fiancé and it was receipts and he looked at them to try to understand what was going on. He noticed that they were bills that my friend charged to his accounts and credit cards and his father wanted to show him that my friend was taking him to the cleaner.


My ex

My ex made sure that he did everything he can do so I can lose the business, my house and my car. I called to people who I knew in the church and the martial arts, their answer was Miss Theresa ask me  for anything else but do not ask me to help you at the dojo. The people at the church said I will tell the pastor was it going on but the pastor had his own stuffs to deal with. My ex scared them and they feared for their lives. He knew the tricks of the street unlike me I was raised in a shelter and safe environment. I was raised to be nice to people and help people since I am the oldest of nine children. The oldest helped carry the burdens since my father died. I was also spoiled by my father and my mother and I spoiled myself also.

At first I was trying to teach the oldest son that I raised the same way but he was smart , clever and his birth mother brainwashed him about me, she always hate me. He wanted no part of that kind of thinking, lol great for him. I wished I had that kind of determination to do the same thing like he did. He left to find his own race that was wisdom. He cared about himself and that was good for him. He wasn’t going to be responsible to no one else but himself, I respected him for that.


Free Moral Agents

Theresa said “The truth is that we live among free moral agents who often choose evil, resulting in inescapable trouble for others.” Jim Cymbala author of Breakthrough Prayer

Example of such people is the mastermind and cohorts of 9/11 and others who live among us.

The young lady that I raised since she was two and a half years old, I loved her like my own because I am capable of that. I raised one of my brothers when my mother left for the state to make a better living so she can give us the best. The young lady got brainwashed just liked Mat did with me but she will understand the truth later on. Just liked I understand her mother now what she went through because of his lied. I told him that his children need their mom when they were with us. I called her and asked her for help with the older son when he was going to his bad stage but she answered that she can’t. It was the hardest time in my life. I started to hold grudges against her cause I didn’t understand how can she just left.

He didn’t care that the mother of his older children were not there for them; in his mind everyone is replaceable just like him. The spirit that took him hostage ruled him and he had no sympathy for no one. That spirit is the same that embody his new wife, they r lost souls. He knows in his dream that the evil spirit came for him but he wanted me to stop the spirit but I was too tired. I fought too much in my natural being to stay alive. I had too many against me and some said they were Christians which made it worst. They used white magic to hurt people and the one that called themselves pastors, brothers were against marriage, they were dividers. Sunday school teacher with no soul just knowledge of the bible but no good spirit. That young lady helped her father with his lied and she was still young therefore she didn’t know the outcome of her being a helper. She has not experience motherhood or marriage.



More of my Dreams


I dreamt that I had a baby boy and I introduce him to my friend Melky Jean. Before that my mother brought the baby to me and I breastfed him while I sat outside and I had so much milk that I had to put a cup on the other breast that he wasnt’ t using to get his milk. I saw that I am happy, after I fed him he fell asleep again, I went to a house to look for a sandal and there was someone taking a bath in the bathroom so I couldn’t go there. I went to another room I saw a bag and inside were the uniforms of my children from when they attended Abundant Life Academy. I looked inside for the sandal but it wasn’t there then I looked around the house and I saw a pair that match and I put it on my feet and went outside the porch. That’s went Melky Jean came in and I told her about my baby. We went for a walk and the baby was still in my hand asleep and he opened his eyes, I noticed that the baby is my son Anthony. He is so handsome and I love him so much.



Recent Dream

I dreamt that I was in a car and my mother was driving, we were on the way to church. We came to a stop sign and the traffic was going the wrong direction, I told my mother to cross over ago to the next street in the right direction but she didn’t want to. She froze so I told her to move over so I can drive in the right direction. We got there and we walk in the small street and I saw a lady inside a beauty salon and we keep walking. When we got there I went upstairs and I sat on the table with the pastor and two other people, the pastor was teaching Latin. At the end of the meeting he said something but I didn’t hear what he said so I asked the other person and the person told me that the pastor said “The world”. After I went in the back and I saw the pastor children in a room and they were talking to each other. I tried to leave so I went in the basement and it was dark but I still managed to get out.

March 22, 2012

I dreamt that I went to a small hospital that have also a nice mall downstairs and apparently my kids were there with me. I went to visit the patients in all the rooms in the hospital and one young lady had to get a procedure where the technologist put dye in her veins and followed it all the way to her heart. I ended up in a room and the Bishop that married me before came to visit the same patient. While the nurse was putting the IV for her, the Bishop started to talk to me about his family that was nice. My ex husband came in to see the lady that was in the next bed, she was very heavy and he picked up the lady in his arm and he was sad. I looked outside I saw my ex husband new wife was with three other Caucasian ladies and they were poking their heads to spied on what was going on. Anyway I didn’t pay any attention to them and I went to the elevator to meet a friend of mine that was there and we started to talk about what just happen. I explained to her how my ex lied then it was time for me to go home but the kids were not there so I figured that they left with their father so I called them and they confirmed that they left with him and he’ll drop them home to me. Then his wife called me and said ” did my husband called you” and I answered no and I proceed to tell her that she knew that her husband lied about me but she started to argued with me and I just said to her never mind. That helped me to understand that she made him lied about me.





Dream on 4-5-2012


In this dream I went to visit a family in a building and they were on the third floor, the apartment was full of family and the stairs were full of so many clothes also. It looked like people used the stairs as a dumpster. The apartment turn into a school and my kids were there so was their father and his new wife. I noticed that I brought chicken and I served everyone than a feast start with lobster, clam, fish and a big plate of paella.

After I want to take some of the expensive foods but my ex-husband wife told me no because she’ll make a plate for me. She was happy to be the lady of the party; I told her it’s ok. She looked happy and I saw that she started to dance because the music was playing. She was putting on a show for everyone. I had more chicken on the stove so I took an aluminum foil and took the rest of it without anyone knowledge. I left the party and my kids were on the deck and I kiss them goodbye.




My dream on March 29, 2012

I dreamt that I was at a place that I worked before for a meeting, all the family was there and I sat behind my old desk in the office. I saw that my sister brought me a baby boy, he’s so handsome and I had to change his diaper because he urinates. My sister handed me the diaper bag and I empty the bag on the desk, inside the diaper bag were expensive items for the baby. Then I woke up.



My dream on March 29, 2012

I dreamt that I was at a place that I worked before for a meeting, all the family was there and I sat behind my old desk in the office. I saw that my sister brought me a baby boy, he’s so handsome and I had to change his diaper because he urinates. My sister handed me the diaper bag and I empty the bag on the desk, inside the diaper bag were expensive items for the baby. Then I woke up.


My dream on March 24, 2012

In this dream, I saw my ex-husband was over my house and our children were there also, we were on good term. Then he said to me, “I need my wife to sign the paper for me to buy a house”. After a while I heard his wife outside screaming and going crazy so he went outside to her and they started to argue and fight. He asked another lady we knew to come to the house with the contract so he and his wife can sign the paper. His wife came in my house and she was still upset and she said to me, “I don’t have money to buy foods, clothes or anything else for me and my kids.” Another lady from my church came to my house with her family and I told her what was going on. Then I woke up.